things that do matter.

alrights.people always say that life isnt fair.well.thats jus life itself.and it really sucks.
my life sucks shit and im still living it cos i have to.
reasons why my life sucks so bad?
well firstly.i strive to succeed just like everybody else.i study for my term exams.(to the assholes reading this and start thinking "omfg nels voon is STUDYING??".just stfu cos im not in the freaking mood)
yes i study and my freaking results still slip.
they say that life is like a sewer cos wad you get out of it is what you put into it.
i put everything i had into it.i practically threw myself at it.and guess what.i still fail to obtain the grades that i KNOW i deserved.
and guess what?
now im getting a freaking load of pressure from my parents just because of this.they dont know what its like and they continue to tell me what it was like back in the day.well. news flash people.those days are long gone.we're in the fucking 21st century.so deal with it.
standards have raised and so has everything else.if you know what i mean..
another this is that my brother succeeded.not in his SPM.but in his PMR.he obtained 7A's and my parents expect me to keep to his standards and obtain the same.it isnt impossible.i can get it.i know i can.but with the pressure from my parents?threatening me in every way possible?
do they really think thats going to help?
bullshit.thats just gonna make me slip more due to the fact that i have more things on my mind and i wont be able to concerntrate.
this sucks bad.life sucks bad.and we have to learn to accept it.
people always say that life has its ups and downs.
well now i wanna know.where are my ups?

friends.ah..they are the ones who bring you up when you fall.they are the ones who hold on to you when u think u cant make it on ur own.but are all friends like that?no.most friends that we have are like the dried leaves on the pavement.the wind comes and they're gone.even when they keep telling you they'll be there to catch you when you fall.
true friends dont have to tell you this.because you already know who they are and when they're going to catch you.when you succeed.friends all around share your happiness.but its when you fail do your true friends come out to shelter you from the rain of insults.
i guess they were right.i wanted to prove the saying wrong.but i couldnt.frens really do come and go as we go on in life.
its annoying really when you have loads of friends when ur rich or famous and have connections and when you lose it all.ur friends jus leave and forget your name.those arent friends.they're just suck-ups.they dont love you like ur real friends do.they dont care at all.these are the people who dont have lives and spend their entire life trying to find out who they are but trying to fit into all the different cliques.these are the idiots who think that life is about finding yourself.it isnt.its about creating yourself.making some1 new.being a role model to some1 else.not trying to BE some1 else.
another really annoying thing is that these people are always afriad of their life ending.why?would you even been missed?life is but a candle.when blown off.you're gone and forgotten.people shouldnt be afraid of their life ending.because life will end.in one way or another.be afraid that your life will never begin.
dont understand?
well.when people try to fit in.they're always trying to be somebody else.therefore their own story never unfolds and thus the story of their life never begins.

i dont know if i have made any sense to you.but that isnt important.i make perfect sense to myself.and i know.what i say is true.

so to all the people reading this.dont be the idiots who try to fit in all the time.be the ones who stand out.write your own story and when you grow old.you'll be able to say that you did it your way.if you havent started your story yet.nows the time.so go and write your lifes story.and live it.

one more thing.be a true friend.and help the ones you care for.dont be just another leaf in someone's life.be the air that they breathe.be the light in their darkness.be their everything.make sure that when they are down.you try to do everything for them to make them smile again.not the other way round.
yes sometimes we do like to joke around.but there are time where we can joke and there are times where we should take things seriously.especially when your close fren is in deep shit.
make them smile.say encouraging things.make them laugh.say meaningful things.make them remember you.say great things.

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter, dont mind and those who mind, dont matter.

i've lost a great friend.and i dont want anyone else to lose any of their friends.keep them close to your heart.and forever remember their deeds.

thanks for reading.